More than a month after the incident, I am still having mixed emotions.
This is such a huge turning point in my life.
Many assumptions or impressions changed. And I don't blame you if you felt I was being a pain in the ass.
5 months of internship at MediaCorp Technologies.
I was attached to a place where others had impressions about. I have heard plenty of stuff even before I knew my plight. But not a single moment did I regret going there.
Maybe I felt sorry for myself. Or even pity. That I wasn't given the opportunity to learn what I wanted to.
But I genuinely had wonderful memories interning at Singapore's free-to-air TV broadcast centre. These seniors taught me SO SO much about the real working world. Interpersonal relations, politics, technical knowledge and so much more...I really admired these unsung heroes. Not a single moment can they slack.
Have you ever wonder who ensures 24/7 operations? Even during technical breakdowns, they give in their all to minimize channel downtime.
Did you thought there wasn't anyone on duty during the most crucial period of SARS, H1N1 or even terrorist attacks? Or...has such a thought never ever cross your mind before?
These are the people who made television viewing a comfort and source of entertainment for you and me. Even when everyone else is resting, having their meals or quarantined from some deadly disease, the conty operators are still there, ensuring operational excellence.
I really admire and respect them. And I did learn a lot from them. THESE LESSONS are regardless of the fact if I would ever use the knowledge gained after I leave MediaCorp. Because this special crew showed me how 'humanistic' television could actually be.
Which was part of the reason why I broke down during the internship presentation.
I was really hurt.
I almost lost my chance to be here three years ago.
Many times in between the last five semesters, I felt so tired and struggled to keep up.
After tolerating and ignoring the fact that I would nv have the chance to intern at my desirable destination.
After working so hard to get to where I am.
After putting in so much effort, even after working hours, even on weekends, even working on MediaCorp Day Offs...
...you said all that to me.
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After a month, I finally summoned a little bit of courage to open a few facebook pics that Junwei tagged me during the presentation. Still not enough to view the entire album thou.
I thought I would be reprimanded for been unprofessional, for jeopardizing my grades, but instead, the few seniors in faith I shared this with, shared something even more.
Where has my patience and tolerance gone to?
How could I allow a few words to break down all these efforts I have build up for this long?
HUMAN REVOLUTION!
I must change and improve myself...
Stop holding shallow judgments against _______.
THANKS to all my friends who have been there for me!! :)
