"Tomorrow, I shall do this."
"Maybe, I will leave it til I'm free."
How many tomorrows do we need to wait til the deadline draws nearer? How can we stop procrastinating and get to do what's important and urgent?
Well, I'm glad I had the determination to stop leaving tasks at hand til 'tomorrow'.
In SGI, we marked 2009 as the Year of Youth and Victory. On the last day of this year, I don't want to leave any regrets and disappoint myself.
Went to the studio this morning to set up for vocals and guitar dubbing, but our dearest songwriter/composer/vocalist/guitarist o.v.e.r.s.l.e.p.t. Haha, in the end, the girls spent a few hours learning what's essential for the recording, and Issac & Benchan came to discuss about our Live Sound project. We were able to complete a huge portion of paperwork today.
After last night's NPSD25 daimokukai, I thought of sending all my ywd members the SD exam study materials for the week. But when I got to the school library to photocopy the Rishho Ankoku Ron notes, realised I didn't have enough cash in me. Thankfully, the auntie let me owe her 10cents, so I was able to print for 6 members. That 10cents was so important to me at that point of time! One more life could be inspired because of that coin! :D
As we walked back to the studio, I saw some AVT juniors and managed to pass the notes to Yeeteng!! Then I went round Singapore to pass the copies to Dawn, Vivien, Serene and Rui Zhen. By dinner time, when I met Rena, Hysen, Sam, Angela and Huimin, I felt really accomplished.
Today, I worked hard!
Even though, there was a tint of regret that I didn't have enough time to catch up with everyone, but at least, I was glad I made the effort to do this.
2010, here I come!!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Sunday, December 6, 2009
HOPENHEGEN!
Just fropped by SAM's blog and was really excited to read what she saw outside SP's library. Shall we kickstart smth too? *HINT!*
In September'09, I received a mail to join one of avaaz.org's petitions for a "WORLD TO APEC: HOPE IS NOT ENOUGH!". Since then, I start to take small actions daily to do my part for climate change. Encourage public transport/carpooling, saving energy...I wished i could have done more then.
On Sep 21st, I was not able to join the Global Climate Wake-Up call flashmob at Orchard ION, but throughout the world, over 1900 events around the world took place. Huge masses gathered together, took out their mobile phones and dialed the office numbers of respective leaders of their country. For Singapore, we were given the numbers of PM Lee and our grassroot leaders.
On FB, a fellow St.Margs alumni set up a Go Green Rally. Was surprised to know that she cares alot abt this issue and that so many of her friends are joining her in this!! :D
Here's wad SAM posted.
"On December 7, leaders from 192 countries will gather at the UN Climate Change Conference in Copenhagen to determine the fate of our planet. Let's turn Copenhagen into Hopenhagen. Hopenhagen is a movement, a moment and a chance at a new beginning. The hope that we can create a global community that will lead our leaders into making the right decisions. The hope that by solving our environmental crisis, we can solve our economic crisis at the same time. Hopenhagen is change - and that change will be powered by all of us.
Let us all do a part. Sign the petition against Climate changes! (:
In September'09, I received a mail to join one of avaaz.org's petitions for a "WORLD TO APEC: HOPE IS NOT ENOUGH!". Since then, I start to take small actions daily to do my part for climate change. Encourage public transport/carpooling, saving energy...I wished i could have done more then.
On Sep 21st, I was not able to join the Global Climate Wake-Up call flashmob at Orchard ION, but throughout the world, over 1900 events around the world took place. Huge masses gathered together, took out their mobile phones and dialed the office numbers of respective leaders of their country. For Singapore, we were given the numbers of PM Lee and our grassroot leaders.
On FB, a fellow St.Margs alumni set up a Go Green Rally. Was surprised to know that she cares alot abt this issue and that so many of her friends are joining her in this!! :D
Here's wad SAM posted.
"On December 7, leaders from 192 countries will gather at the UN Climate Change Conference in Copenhagen to determine the fate of our planet. Let's turn Copenhagen into Hopenhagen. Hopenhagen is a movement, a moment and a chance at a new beginning. The hope that we can create a global community that will lead our leaders into making the right decisions. The hope that by solving our environmental crisis, we can solve our economic crisis at the same time. Hopenhagen is change - and that change will be powered by all of us.
Help lead the leaders by visiting hopenhagen.org today. Sign the petition. Become a citizen of Hopenhagen. Fuel the movement. More important, pass on the story of Hopenhagen to your friends and family. Encourage everyone you can to get involved and sign the petition. Because the more of us who do, the more our leaders will recognize the world is serious about change.
Let's turn Copenhagen into Hopenhagen."
Let us all do a part. Sign the petition against Climate changes! (:
Monday, November 30, 2009
The last whole weekend had been hectic.
Woke up late on Friday morning...letting Sam wait at Serene Centre for TWO HOURS!! Sorry babe!! Still, we had an enjoyable time at Island Creamery! :) Huimin and Sam has gone there. WHO ELSE?!
At lunchtime, rushed down to Toa Payoh Town Park for the FD Coaching post-exam celebrations!! Sorry I couldn't stay for long..
Together with CAPTAs, (or SNOWFLAKES) we helped out at XX's twenty first's birthday @ NSRCC. It was pretty embarrassing (and extremely brave of us) to accept Dennis's initiative of hosting & singing at the party to tens of unknown guests. Still, hope our dearest birthday girl enjoyed herself thoroughly!
AND SUNDAY...
I spent the WHOLE day researching for my World Issues report, a fact sheet on Racial Discrimination. Edited and improved on my report up til 5.45am this morning, before I surrendered to my weariness and went to bed. AND WOKE UP AT TEN THIRTY AM!!!
Class was at TEN! You wouldn't be able to imagine my panic and frustration. haha...luckily I was in pretty high life condition today, managed to write a email to the lecturer to explain my absence from class and hand in my assignment in due time. :D
THIS WEEK will be just as hectic. Will be staying in the school loft throughout the week in preparation for the EE Idol competition. Will date you all during the weekend! SEEYA!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Replies.
SHEEREEN - the huanted BoonKeng thing really freak me out. LOL.
haha. YEAP! I really didn't speak!! (Except for a occasional unconscious whisper) I know its really unbelievable I would take such a challenge. Just wanted to challenge myself. It's an unique way to spread the msg. Because of fear of rejection, thosw with STDs/AIDS dare not speak up and share that there's really nth the public have to be afraid of.
By donning on red and black and tying the pledge cloth, we hope to remove the sigma of those who are afraid of these patients.
HUIXIAN - YESH! RuiZhen did the pledge too!! :)
Could you be more specific? haha...UPDATE WAD?
Let's meet soon!! We have to research on our chosen study topic, remb?! :D
POST.
My life's in turbulence now. How I wish all these will be over soon. I need to get used to me.
Everyday, I push myself to initiate a new change in my life. It's funny. Haha. As I'm typing this post, my mum's telling my aunt how to carry out our Human Revolution.
HR (Human Revolution) - An individual's inner transformation could actively change their circumstances and their environment.
1) Spent the last whole week in the school hostel (the Loft) with AVTians.
It had been fun and also very energy-consuming.
2) Friday was my dad and Jerry's birthday, but I spent it with my chapter leaders. Jerry gave us a pleasant surprise by attending the mtg too! :) NINETEEN years old. A significant age. I remembered how much I grew when I was 19 too. That night, my appointment and transfer from district 3 to district 4 was announced too. Went back and celebrate it with my dad. I wish I knew how to share with him more about my life and vice versa. Planned to get him a guitar. Then we can learn together! ^.^
3) Thanks to Xingyi, who recruited Yingting, Yijie, Chrisitine and me for the REDBULL audit. It's really not easy to source out 370 shops that carry the Austria RedBull product. Some stores were reluctant to let us carry out our work. Still, this experience allowed me to open my eyes to people-watch and tour the local neighbourhood shop houses.
4) Special mention:
Really hope you had an awesome day!! Even though majority of the time was spent on projects and homework, still, continue to strive on courageously towards your goals!
I owe you one ISLAND CREAMERY feast! :)
Today's Guidance:
SHEEREEN - the huanted BoonKeng thing really freak me out. LOL.
haha. YEAP! I really didn't speak!! (Except for a occasional unconscious whisper) I know its really unbelievable I would take such a challenge. Just wanted to challenge myself. It's an unique way to spread the msg. Because of fear of rejection, thosw with STDs/AIDS dare not speak up and share that there's really nth the public have to be afraid of.
By donning on red and black and tying the pledge cloth, we hope to remove the sigma of those who are afraid of these patients.
HUIXIAN - YESH! RuiZhen did the pledge too!! :)
Could you be more specific? haha...UPDATE WAD?
Let's meet soon!! We have to research on our chosen study topic, remb?! :D
POST.
My life's in turbulence now. How I wish all these will be over soon. I need to get used to me.
Everyday, I push myself to initiate a new change in my life. It's funny. Haha. As I'm typing this post, my mum's telling my aunt how to carry out our Human Revolution.
HR (Human Revolution) - An individual's inner transformation could actively change their circumstances and their environment.
1) Spent the last whole week in the school hostel (the Loft) with AVTians.
It had been fun and also very energy-consuming.
2) Friday was my dad and Jerry's birthday, but I spent it with my chapter leaders. Jerry gave us a pleasant surprise by attending the mtg too! :) NINETEEN years old. A significant age. I remembered how much I grew when I was 19 too. That night, my appointment and transfer from district 3 to district 4 was announced too. Went back and celebrate it with my dad. I wish I knew how to share with him more about my life and vice versa. Planned to get him a guitar. Then we can learn together! ^.^
3) Thanks to Xingyi, who recruited Yingting, Yijie, Chrisitine and me for the REDBULL audit. It's really not easy to source out 370 shops that carry the Austria RedBull product. Some stores were reluctant to let us carry out our work. Still, this experience allowed me to open my eyes to people-watch and tour the local neighbourhood shop houses.
4) Special mention:
HAPPY NINETEENTH BIRTHDAY, SAM!!! <3
Really hope you had an awesome day!! Even though majority of the time was spent on projects and homework, still, continue to strive on courageously towards your goals!
I owe you one ISLAND CREAMERY feast! :)
Today's Guidance:
"LIFE is a drama. Since we are going to perform on the stage of life anyway, we ought to live vigorously and joyfully, and enact an inspiring drama of successive victories. We have to win in life. We have to win in society. We have to win a resounding victory for kosen-rufu."
Saturday, October 31, 2009
PLEDGE OF SILENCE.
Signed up with 800 fellow NP students for the POS. Ten other educational institutions took part in it too.
It's a campaign against the silence of HIV/AIDS. Society needs to recognize that there is still silence surrounding HIV/AIDS which is caused by stigmatization and discrimination. This will in turn impedes public awareness for HIV/AIDS and dis-empower infected individuals.
In an effort to combat the stigma, I pledged EIGHT hours of silence on 30th October, 2009. When the pledge ends, I will actively remove myself from the cycle of silence that only drives HIV/AIDS further underground.
Signing on the pledge card, I look through the contents. There were choices for the pledgers to choose. We have to strictly adhere to the conditions, limited by our own comfort zone.
Besides pledging absolute silence, we could also choose to limit our speech to 5 words or be in silence without hand gestures to anyone / without eye contact with anyone / without the use of mobile and wireless communication. I didn't had enough determination to choose the latter few choices.
Sadly, there were a countable number of times where I broke my silence too. I still continued to see through the rest of my pledge though. To me, the significance behind this pledge is great. Even IF there was a disqualifying condition, I would still stay mute for 8 hours. Courage and perseverance were essential to this campaign. If I had given up mid-way deliberately, I'll probably never forgive myself.
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."
- Martin Luther King, Jr.
Initially, I was afraid that I would face discrimination. How would others view me? Then, a thought pushed away all my worries. "I cowardly hide away from the crowd, because I don't know how others view me. Then, for our fellow sick friends, how would they feel having to shy away like this, for life?"
Thankfully, my classmates and lecturers were supportive too! haha...besides the guys' occasional disturbing, I managed to last til the end of the last lesson! It's not the end yet. There's still more to do until we eradicate this silence in our society.
To those out there who are ill because of HIV/AIDS, please know that there are many of us supporting you!! Don't give up! :D
she said he is confused. confused by my actions. he isn't sure how to love me now.
i don't even dare to think abt it. can't you see we are the same?
i'm scared to love you.
you will be hurt, because I dunno how to love you well.
i don't even dare to think abt it. can't you see we are the same?
i'm scared to love you.
you will be hurt, because I dunno how to love you well.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
The Colour of Champagne
Champagne Rose.-=-
i'm thankful. :)
I know this is awfully belated. Just wanna say how grateful I am to every single family and friend in my life. September hasn't been an easy month to pull through. October is almost ending and i'm still lost in my 21st year resolutions. But because of this eventful period, I got to understand myself better. No longer do I wish to wallow in self-pity.
Days ago, a girlfriend and i had an argument. We had different views about life. I didn't like her cynical remarks and she finds me fake at times too. Fake probably because to her, I don't let myself see the world negatively. And I had my reasons. But I was glad we talked about it. Even if in the end, our views were still largely biased, it made me reflect a lot about myself.
I realized how much I yearn for emotional detachment. Detachment does not mean ignoring an experience, but immersing yourself in it. By experiencing wholly, one is able to let go, to detach.
If I am proud and pleased with myself for accomplishing a deed, I hope to feel the pride and satisfaction thoroughly. When someone does something unreasonable, I hope to feel anger or frustrated.
Things are not as easy as it seems. I yearn it but I fear that this detachment would overwhelm me too. Especially allowing myself to feel the more negative emotions like jealousy, arrogance, loss, anger...
I even fear to feel happy and loved, because how would I know I wouldn't be hurt in the end?
Sigh. I am learning still. I am so scared I would fall off the path I have forged for this long. I wanna know how I can achieve this, and yet, still stay firm and rooted in myself.
...
...
...
I am human too. Eventually, I have to get over being afraid. Only by immersing myself fully in all these emotions, can I fully understand how others feel.
I will face my fears. I don't wanna leave regrets.
Thanks to you! - a few loved ones whom had unknowingly, with your random encouragements, spurred me to push myself, to create change in my life. I will do my Human Revolution.
Days ago, a girlfriend and i had an argument. We had different views about life. I didn't like her cynical remarks and she finds me fake at times too. Fake probably because to her, I don't let myself see the world negatively. And I had my reasons. But I was glad we talked about it. Even if in the end, our views were still largely biased, it made me reflect a lot about myself.
I realized how much I yearn for emotional detachment. Detachment does not mean ignoring an experience, but immersing yourself in it. By experiencing wholly, one is able to let go, to detach.
If I am proud and pleased with myself for accomplishing a deed, I hope to feel the pride and satisfaction thoroughly. When someone does something unreasonable, I hope to feel anger or frustrated.
Things are not as easy as it seems. I yearn it but I fear that this detachment would overwhelm me too. Especially allowing myself to feel the more negative emotions like jealousy, arrogance, loss, anger...
I even fear to feel happy and loved, because how would I know I wouldn't be hurt in the end?
Sigh. I am learning still. I am so scared I would fall off the path I have forged for this long. I wanna know how I can achieve this, and yet, still stay firm and rooted in myself.
...
...
...
I am human too. Eventually, I have to get over being afraid. Only by immersing myself fully in all these emotions, can I fully understand how others feel.
I will face my fears. I don't wanna leave regrets.
Thanks to you! - a few loved ones whom had unknowingly, with your random encouragements, spurred me to push myself, to create change in my life. I will do my Human Revolution.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Ah Fei's little butterfly.
I need to feel better. I really dun wanna get affected by all the miserable ignorance in the world.
One disappointment after another...
Even the strongest man on earth will crumple.
That's why I'm all the more thankful now, for reading my mail today. Serangoon South D3's WD, Lilian sent me a mail last weekend.
I've been amazed recently, how mothers of Kosen-Rufu can achieve so much. Just like my mum. Every single detail at work and home requires their full attention and still, they have so much strength and compassion to encourage fellow members.
Anyway, Lilian's email contained a guidance by SGI Vice President Tsuji on "Bring Forth Many Immeasurable Benefits". It's all-inspiring. I'm definitely going to manifest the law of life throughout my life. Benefits not just for myself, but for every single life connected to mine.
-=-
Looking at what i just typed just made me feel better. haha.
Cute typewriter fonts.
Speaking of typewriter. We're getting one for ________ tmr. :D
Hope she like it. and hopefully it works well.
When i told the class abt it, all the girls' reactions were the same. LOL.
I know! I want one too!! I have a feeling the guys have no idea why we would get her that. haha.
We adore the artsy farty stuff & they marvel over their modern high-tech gadgets.
Another difference between Mars and Venus.
-=-
I'm so in love with the song now.
"Ah Fei's Little Butterfly"
Oo...i feel the inspiration flowing thru my body. :)
GTG prepare for the things we will be doing tmr!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
ARK - Criss.
Away From Kosen-Rufu.
Coined by NPSD's very own CRISS NG CHAI BENG.
Who knew Ah-Beng could come up with this? LOL.
-=-
The past few weeks of holidays had been SO different from past years' semester breaks. An collective effort from my beloved AVT class on the whole, we had been dating countless times in the span of less than a month.
Impressions of many classmates changed. Friendship was built up. Inside jokes were formed. Even though it wasn't EVERYONE, but it certainly proved that as long we really really want things to happen, they will.
-=-
Since my internship presentation, I guess most saw how LLC (low-life condition) i had become. Inside me, grew a fear for failure, something I hadn't felt for such a long time. Embarrassment and self-doubt were definitely in there too.
I had distant myself from Gakkai activities and felt a huge sense of laziness overwhelm my life. Was this the arrival of the SanShoShiMa? (three obstacles, four devils) If this was a test of faith, then, I must not be defeated.
Thankfully, BOE (Bodhisattvas of the Earth) emerge in the form of family, classmates, girlfriends, district leaders, YWD leaders, NPSD and many other SSA comrades.
I know some of you felt apologetic for the words you said that triggered my emotions and caused me to breakdown, but without you, I would never be able to realise my intolerance capability and oversensitiveness on certain things in life. So...no worries.
Really grateful none of you gave up on me. Especially my sister, who couldn't take it any longer. The fact, that I had so much good fortune in my life, yet I keep giving them away and mistreating myself.
When I prayed for opportunities to surface, be it my desired course, my awesome friends, dedicated lecturers, part time jobs, to attract ppl who need and love me, I would always get them answered. Yet, I don't mind sharing it or passing many of these opportunities to others. She told me this.
"You have no idea how happy you can actually be."
It not only shook me out of my self-pity, but i felt so ashamed all a sudden. Here I am, born in this era, with my beloved mentor, with this wonderful life philosophy, with so much to be thankful for, and all a sudden, I was pushing my life away.
-=-
I was really proud of myself today. Accomplished pretty much!
1. Coaching 'GEOG' class with KAILIN.
I'm just as excited as her, because the N'levels are ending soon!!!
It was a very relaxing session. And I was really glad she was opening up to me...
2. Met ROCHELLE, YIJIE, CHRISTINE, YINGTING, KENNETH & BENCHAN @ Henderson Waves.
Thou the wind wasn't strong enough for kite-flying.
At least i really enjoyed the company and my hot fudge sundae!
3. Traveled to Bukit Batok for NPSD25!! This week's at SIMIN's place.
Our one-hour daimoku was really dynamic. We set some really concrete prayers! Especially for each of our friends and the recovery of those suffering after the recent natural disasters.
We resumed our campus reachout planning. I guess everyone present's really excited about carrying out the project and going back to school! We also had a very fulfilling sharing!! VIVO Campaign is already at its final phrase and there's absolutely no reason for us to slacken in our efforts now!
We really have to achieve Victory for Individual, Victory for Others!!
Criss told Suet Yieng & Grace that they shouldn't be ARK (Away From KoFu).
To me, they have been struggling hard BTS. (Behind The Scenes)
But i did agreed with him. If we really want to create a harmonious and vibrant environment in each of our spheres, to become indispensable individuals, then, we cannot be away from our mission of Kosen-Rufu for even a single second.
Coined by NPSD's very own CRISS NG CHAI BENG.
Who knew Ah-Beng could come up with this? LOL.
-=-
The past few weeks of holidays had been SO different from past years' semester breaks. An collective effort from my beloved AVT class on the whole, we had been dating countless times in the span of less than a month.
Impressions of many classmates changed. Friendship was built up. Inside jokes were formed. Even though it wasn't EVERYONE, but it certainly proved that as long we really really want things to happen, they will.
-=-
Since my internship presentation, I guess most saw how LLC (low-life condition) i had become. Inside me, grew a fear for failure, something I hadn't felt for such a long time. Embarrassment and self-doubt were definitely in there too.
I had distant myself from Gakkai activities and felt a huge sense of laziness overwhelm my life. Was this the arrival of the SanShoShiMa? (three obstacles, four devils) If this was a test of faith, then, I must not be defeated.
Thankfully, BOE (Bodhisattvas of the Earth) emerge in the form of family, classmates, girlfriends, district leaders, YWD leaders, NPSD and many other SSA comrades.
I know some of you felt apologetic for the words you said that triggered my emotions and caused me to breakdown, but without you, I would never be able to realise my intolerance capability and oversensitiveness on certain things in life. So...no worries.
Really grateful none of you gave up on me. Especially my sister, who couldn't take it any longer. The fact, that I had so much good fortune in my life, yet I keep giving them away and mistreating myself.
When I prayed for opportunities to surface, be it my desired course, my awesome friends, dedicated lecturers, part time jobs, to attract ppl who need and love me, I would always get them answered. Yet, I don't mind sharing it or passing many of these opportunities to others. She told me this.
"You have no idea how happy you can actually be."
It not only shook me out of my self-pity, but i felt so ashamed all a sudden. Here I am, born in this era, with my beloved mentor, with this wonderful life philosophy, with so much to be thankful for, and all a sudden, I was pushing my life away.
-=-
I was really proud of myself today. Accomplished pretty much!
1. Coaching 'GEOG' class with KAILIN.
I'm just as excited as her, because the N'levels are ending soon!!!
It was a very relaxing session. And I was really glad she was opening up to me...
2. Met ROCHELLE, YIJIE, CHRISTINE, YINGTING, KENNETH & BENCHAN @ Henderson Waves.
Thou the wind wasn't strong enough for kite-flying.
At least i really enjoyed the company and my hot fudge sundae!
3. Traveled to Bukit Batok for NPSD25!! This week's at SIMIN's place.
Our one-hour daimoku was really dynamic. We set some really concrete prayers! Especially for each of our friends and the recovery of those suffering after the recent natural disasters.
We resumed our campus reachout planning. I guess everyone present's really excited about carrying out the project and going back to school! We also had a very fulfilling sharing!! VIVO Campaign is already at its final phrase and there's absolutely no reason for us to slacken in our efforts now!
We really have to achieve Victory for Individual, Victory for Others!!
Criss told Suet Yieng & Grace that they shouldn't be ARK (Away From KoFu).
To me, they have been struggling hard BTS. (Behind The Scenes)
But i did agreed with him. If we really want to create a harmonious and vibrant environment in each of our spheres, to become indispensable individuals, then, we cannot be away from our mission of Kosen-Rufu for even a single second.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
CHIM-a-LOGY
BGRs.
Maybe it's the cold weather, or the fact that all our friends are coupling up, but we've got a serious case of couple-itis. It's when single gals suddenly find themselves lonely and lookin'.
I may have a lot of love to spread and pass around - I love my family, my friends & the things i do - but, i dunno if there's time to commit to just one person.
It pains me so much to see my girlfriends suffering in agony. I don't even want to describe the things they went through. Even though, after clear, unbiased debate, we came to a conclusion where a possible cause planted by them, arose to an irreversible effect, when their crushes or boyfriends left them so confused and frustrated.
Tonight, I'm so proud of YOU for taking up the courage to confront, to confess and to embrace the situation!! Even though, i'm deeply sorry for being so strict and naggy with you the past few days, tonight's outcome really left me speechless.
Only a 'smiley' icon can express my JOY!! :D
I know how you feel now. I feel it too!! You are suddenly freaked out by the speed things are changing. You wanna smile and scream in joy but you are so afraid things don't last. You are afraid of change and what the future brings. I understand, babe. I really do!! LOL!
Continue to persevere, babes!! Really hope you all will be happy!!
Either way, you STILL have your own life to lead, so...don't let anything affect you. No matter what happens, whether he propose in the end or abandons you cruelly, remb, you do not exist for him. Live for yourself!! Love & respect yourself if you want others to love & respect you!!
"i'll be there for you~"
:D
Thursday, September 24, 2009
my LIL RED HOUSE moments
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BurfDae PARTee!
Preparing for the birthday party was not easy feat. I had so much on hand, especially the internship project. Therefore, I was really thankful to all the lovely girlfriends and guys too...and my entire family for working days and nights to make this memorable for me. I really appreciate every single effort!!
Thanks to all who came!! (I totally understand. Not everyone could make it and I don't blame them.) Especially to a few special girls who started planning a surprise long ago, thank you SO MUCH and sorry for canceling your plan!! Forgive me~
I know most of my friends were informed about the surprise party and to cancel the preparations wasn't easy. Sorry!!
Thanks too, for coming down to the LITTLE RED HOUSE restaurant, for compromising with the time, for bearing with my fussy requests to bring your own cup and tissue and photo...etc. I know I was an irritant then.
Your presence means SO much to me and I truly hope every single guest enjoyed themselves thoroughly. It isn't perfect and I know how badly you all were tempted to watch Michael Jackson on CH 5, but still 'put your focus' on me. :)
I will definitely work hard and not let you all down!!
ENJOY THE PICTURES!! :D
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
snail mail
im grateful.
therefore i send this to you.
really hope eveyone can receive it asap!! will rush it out asap and send!! pardon the poor handwriting, loves!
wanna check the prelude?
therefore i send this to you.
really hope eveyone can receive it asap!! will rush it out asap and send!! pardon the poor handwriting, loves!
wanna check the prelude?
Thursday, August 20, 2009
FOOLISHNESS & IMPATIENCE
(reflections typed on 25/9/09.)
More than a month after the incident, I am still having mixed emotions.
This is such a huge turning point in my life.
Many assumptions or impressions changed. And I don't blame you if you felt I was being a pain in the ass.
5 months of internship at MediaCorp Technologies.
I was attached to a place where others had impressions about. I have heard plenty of stuff even before I knew my plight. But not a single moment did I regret going there.
Maybe I felt sorry for myself. Or even pity. That I wasn't given the opportunity to learn what I wanted to.
But I genuinely had wonderful memories interning at Singapore's free-to-air TV broadcast centre. These seniors taught me SO SO much about the real working world. Interpersonal relations, politics, technical knowledge and so much more...I really admired these unsung heroes. Not a single moment can they slack.
Have you ever wonder who ensures 24/7 operations? Even during technical breakdowns, they give in their all to minimize channel downtime.
Did you thought there wasn't anyone on duty during the most crucial period of SARS, H1N1 or even terrorist attacks? Or...has such a thought never ever cross your mind before?
These are the people who made television viewing a comfort and source of entertainment for you and me. Even when everyone else is resting, having their meals or quarantined from some deadly disease, the conty operators are still there, ensuring operational excellence.
I really admire and respect them. And I did learn a lot from them. THESE LESSONS are regardless of the fact if I would ever use the knowledge gained after I leave MediaCorp. Because this special crew showed me how 'humanistic' television could actually be.
Which was part of the reason why I broke down during the internship presentation.
I was really hurt.
I almost lost my chance to be here three years ago.
Many times in between the last five semesters, I felt so tired and struggled to keep up.
After tolerating and ignoring the fact that I would nv have the chance to intern at my desirable destination.
After working so hard to get to where I am.
After putting in so much effort, even after working hours, even on weekends, even working on MediaCorp Day Offs...
...you said all that to me.
-=-
After a month, I finally summoned a little bit of courage to open a few facebook pics that Junwei tagged me during the presentation. Still not enough to view the entire album thou.
I thought I would be reprimanded for been unprofessional, for jeopardizing my grades, but instead, the few seniors in faith I shared this with, shared something even more.
Where has my patience and tolerance gone to?
How could I allow a few words to break down all these efforts I have build up for this long?
HUMAN REVOLUTION!
I must change and improve myself...
Stop holding shallow judgments against _______.
THANKS to all my friends who have been there for me!! :)
More than a month after the incident, I am still having mixed emotions.
This is such a huge turning point in my life.
Many assumptions or impressions changed. And I don't blame you if you felt I was being a pain in the ass.
5 months of internship at MediaCorp Technologies.
I was attached to a place where others had impressions about. I have heard plenty of stuff even before I knew my plight. But not a single moment did I regret going there.
Maybe I felt sorry for myself. Or even pity. That I wasn't given the opportunity to learn what I wanted to.
But I genuinely had wonderful memories interning at Singapore's free-to-air TV broadcast centre. These seniors taught me SO SO much about the real working world. Interpersonal relations, politics, technical knowledge and so much more...I really admired these unsung heroes. Not a single moment can they slack.
Have you ever wonder who ensures 24/7 operations? Even during technical breakdowns, they give in their all to minimize channel downtime.
Did you thought there wasn't anyone on duty during the most crucial period of SARS, H1N1 or even terrorist attacks? Or...has such a thought never ever cross your mind before?
These are the people who made television viewing a comfort and source of entertainment for you and me. Even when everyone else is resting, having their meals or quarantined from some deadly disease, the conty operators are still there, ensuring operational excellence.
I really admire and respect them. And I did learn a lot from them. THESE LESSONS are regardless of the fact if I would ever use the knowledge gained after I leave MediaCorp. Because this special crew showed me how 'humanistic' television could actually be.
Which was part of the reason why I broke down during the internship presentation.
I was really hurt.
I almost lost my chance to be here three years ago.
Many times in between the last five semesters, I felt so tired and struggled to keep up.
After tolerating and ignoring the fact that I would nv have the chance to intern at my desirable destination.
After working so hard to get to where I am.
After putting in so much effort, even after working hours, even on weekends, even working on MediaCorp Day Offs...
...you said all that to me.
-=-
After a month, I finally summoned a little bit of courage to open a few facebook pics that Junwei tagged me during the presentation. Still not enough to view the entire album thou.
I thought I would be reprimanded for been unprofessional, for jeopardizing my grades, but instead, the few seniors in faith I shared this with, shared something even more.
Where has my patience and tolerance gone to?
How could I allow a few words to break down all these efforts I have build up for this long?
HUMAN REVOLUTION!
I must change and improve myself...
Stop holding shallow judgments against _______.
THANKS to all my friends who have been there for me!! :)
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
"I thought you were going to a wedding"
HAHA.
THAT was what a fellow IIC said to me when he saw us in the CATHAY lift last weekend. As per every HARRY POTTER movie, the girlfriends arranged and book ourselves for THE ANNUAL DATE. Of course, this time, there were more friends who join us and we waited almost 2 years for this 6th installment of HP!
Even though the movie was a little wordy, it was overall enjoyable. Except seeing Ron and his new love interest, Lavender Brown k.i.s.s... One particular portion of the show that i felt strongly for was when Harry had to force the possibly poisoned liquid down Dumbledore's throat and watching him die. The things Dumbledore said made me think of Sensei. Compassionate Strictness, Just and Selfless. Can't wait for the next one! (The seventh book is gonna spilt into TWO films. One in mid 2010 and the finale in 2011! Another long wait...)
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HP aside, this date was special too because we held an ADVANCED BDAE CELEBRATION for Siti! More Pictures and Videos to be up soon.
It wasn't easy planning this and I really hope you had fun, babe!! We could have done more, sorry we didn't~ Nevertheless, we hope this had been memorable and magical for you!!
Thanks for all the love these while!!
LOVEE`zj
THAT was what a fellow IIC said to me when he saw us in the CATHAY lift last weekend. As per every HARRY POTTER movie, the girlfriends arranged and book ourselves for THE ANNUAL DATE. Of course, this time, there were more friends who join us and we waited almost 2 years for this 6th installment of HP!
Even though the movie was a little wordy, it was overall enjoyable. Except seeing Ron and his new love interest, Lavender Brown k.i.s.s... One particular portion of the show that i felt strongly for was when Harry had to force the possibly poisoned liquid down Dumbledore's throat and watching him die. The things Dumbledore said made me think of Sensei. Compassionate Strictness, Just and Selfless. Can't wait for the next one! (The seventh book is gonna spilt into TWO films. One in mid 2010 and the finale in 2011! Another long wait...)
-=-
HP aside, this date was special too because we held an ADVANCED BDAE CELEBRATION for Siti! More Pictures and Videos to be up soon.
It wasn't easy planning this and I really hope you had fun, babe!! We could have done more, sorry we didn't~ Nevertheless, we hope this had been memorable and magical for you!!
Thanks for all the love these while!!
LOVEE`zj
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